February 2, 2017 Alina 2Comment

These past 5 years in college, I have had a major faith transition and it’s been pretty heavy on my heart.

As I entered college, I began to discover my own perception of God- separate from what my mom taught me growing up and separate from what I had always thought as a kid.

I’ve had a strong religious background my whole entire life, with my strongest relationship with God being in high school. Being a believer was all I knew.

Tattoos and piercings were out of the question. Drugs and alcohol were taboo. Sex was never even talked about (because if you don’t discuss it, it doesn’t exist right?) and of course, I wasn’t really allowed to have a boyfriend until I was “old enough.”

While I never lost my faith in God, my relationship with Him definitely grew weak.

It’s been hard because everything I thought I knew about sin and love was all wrong.

Just like any average college kid, I began drinking, going out, and partying. It’s not like it was constant/daily or even weekly but it was definitely out of my element. I stopped going to church because I started working on Sundays and couldn’t go- but if I was being honest, I wasn’t even trying to go.

Now that I’m almost done with college (and a lot wiser) this is what I had come to learn about my personal faith.

The main message of Christianity is LOVE.

What I struggled with for a long time was disconnecting my prior knowledge of God with my newfound knowledge. They kept clashing.

Eventually, I realized that it all boiled down to one point- love.

Unconditional love. God loved us, loves us, and will always love us and he calls us to love others.

“If you really fulfill the royal law according to the Scripture, “You shall love your neighbor as yourself,” you are doing well. James 2:8

The royal law is to love your neighbor as yourself!!!

With everything going on in the world, we desperately need to love each other as we love ourselves!!

It’s taken me a while (and I still work towards it every single day) to learn to love humanity at its core.

I am still learning and I am still confused

While I learned about love, there are still personal values I had that I am struggling with.

Do I keep them or do I need to change them along with my faith transition?

 

 

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2 thoughts on “Faith Transition

  1. This was really beautiful Alina.

    “I am still learning and I am still confused.”

    This is part of the adventure of faith, that we know almost nothing yet there is so much to tap into!

    It does feel sad to me that we skim over a lot of the difficult questions. I’m not really judging because I also struggle with wading into those topics.

    BUT! I’m feeling challenged that it’s okay to wade in and get covered in muck. My consolation is that, like you said, God is love. He appreciates that we don’t shy away and we open up with what we really think/ feel/ question. Keep it real! He knows what you’re thinking anyways right? Also, wading in with the delicate lens of love as a lot of these very real topics affect very real people.

    Anyways… thanks for sharing 🙂

    1. Thank you so much for the insightful feedback Mary Clare! I agree, I have many more thoughts on the topic but I don’t think I am ready to share it with the world just yet. I still have so much to figure out on my own haha

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